Personal challenge

I had a LOT of couch time last year which meant a lot of tv time. I was talking with a young lady awhile back about my cancer ordeal and she asked me if I had been watching a variety of the reality shows on tv. I have always liked reality shows I guess because it is a way to escape my reality for a short period of time. After I was diagnosed, I definitely started watching some of the new reality shows for that exact reason, I wanted to escape all that I was facing. I admit this isn't a healthy way of dealing with things, but I was so angry with God that turning to Him at times was something I choose not to do. So I turned to tv and hate to admit it but have become "hooked" on some of these reality shows. I've been feeling convicted for some time now that it is time to stop watching some of this mindless tv and put my time to better use. I don't need to escape my reality anymore. So it has become my personal challenge to stop watching some of the mindless crap on tv. Feel free to ask me how I'm doing on this goal as accountability is essential when making changes.

Hair troubles

Let me just say that I'm VERY thankful to have my own hair, it's a blessing. I think I've wet my hair down about four times this morning trying to find a style that I like and I'm giving up for today. I have a wicked calick (?sp) that I've always had (chemo doesn't get rid of some things) and I'm starting to learn that mousse and curly hair do not mix! It's a bit humbling to learn what hair products work and what doesn't at my age but I'm truly starting over hair-wise. I've always envied my friends with naturally curly hair as I grew up with the straightest of hair, however, I'm starting to learn that phrase "be careful what you wish for." Curly hair isn't exactly the easiest hair to work with either, it kind of has a mind of its own. God is even using my new hair to teach me some things about myself, in particular, how difficult it is to work with stubbornness. I'm about as stubborn as they come and I'm really beginning to appreciate God's patience and grace with me. I don't blame Him one bit for allowing me to have my way sometimes and letting me fail miserably. God really is a gentleman, He's not going to force me to follow Him or force me to do things His way which are always best. So each day that I look in the mirror and see my stubborn, curly hair, I'm being reminded to let go and let God.
Today my hair wins, I just don't have the patience to deal with it. Too bad the mullet or Carol Brady look isn't in style these days, that's pretty much the look I'm getting for now. I know I should take pictures to document this period in life....it's definitely humbling. One of these days I'll work up the courage to do it and post a pic. :)

Results are in

Thank God I don't have an infected port as that would have been a HUGE hassle!! It seems I'm battling a bad virus and quite frankly, having a hard time getting over this bug. I did find out that my white count was a bit on the low side so that explains some of it. I've moved away from the fevers and am now battling a regular old cold. I haven't spent this much time on the couch since treatment and it's driving me a bit nutty. Again, I've been reminded of how much I value good health! Back to the couch for me.