Roller coaster

Yesterday was a great day, got things done and spent time with the husband. Yesterday I felt as if I could battle anything that got in my way. Today, I woke up with a headache and pressure on the left side of my face, similar to a sinus infection. Immediately, I start to wonder if I'm getting a blood clot, is it on its way to my head? Am I making a wise decision to keep my uterus in the hope that I get to use it one day? Mark expressed some concerns about me being on Megace and the blood clots, I try to convince him that it will all be ok but I'm not sure I buy what I'm saying either. Some days I feel like I can't go through this, I can't deal with this....today I'm having one of those days. Sometimes I wake up and it feels like this whole ordeal is a nightmare and then I'm snapped back into reality, this IS my life. I have cancer and my dreams of having a child are uncertain. Some days it's hard. Thankfully, I won't stay in this funk for too long. "This too shall pass" and I'm counting on it.