A wake up call...

As I was getting ready for bed one night, I started spotting which absolutely took the breath right out of me. It was such a shock and I tried to think of all the possible reasons why this would happen aside from the cancer returning, when I couldn't think of any I called my sister. I had been having some abdominal discomfort off/on for about two weeks and felt as though I would be starting a period any day, it was a bit odd. Mark and I talked and had a sleepless night as our minds wandered to all the worst "what ifs." After the shock of it all wore off, I can honestly say that I had a sense of peace in that I am doing exactly what I want to be doing with my life right now. I so remember sitting in the hospital after my surgery being told that for the next six months, I wouldn't be doing anything but treatment and feeling so disappointed that I had my priorities all wrong. So it actually felt good to know that I did learn from that experience and that I'm really trying to live my life to the fullest. The next day, I called Dr P's office and they promptly fit me into the PA's schedule. I was very relieved to hear her say that everything appeared normal and after some discussion, we felt the spotting came from running. We decided to go ahead with a CT scan just to be on the safe side. I started to feel fairly nervous about that test as I drove to the hospital that afternoon, it was like all the old emotions came flooding back. I have many memories of driving to that hospital hoping for good news, only to get bad news. It's amazing how emotions become linked to memories and when I'm facing an unknown, those same emotions follow. Thankfully however, my CT scan came back good and shortly after those results, the symptoms I was having disappeared. We think my IBS really kicked up as I had been under quite a bit of stress the last few weeks, just goes to show how much stress impacts the body. A very good reminder that I need to work on some of the issues causing the stress! Still on track to reach one of my big milestones--the two year mark being cancer-free!!!