Radiation complete

I am thrilled to report I finished radiation and looking forward to my new found freedom tomorrow! I was given a graduation certificate and got to ring the bell, it was a satisfying moment. While laying on the table for the last time, I couldn't help but go over the many ways God has protected me and made this part of treatment manageable. I had been SO terrified of radiation and dreaded this part of treatment from the first time I was told it was needed. I really feel like this part of treatment has been a faith walk and God has once again showed me that He was not only present throughout, but in control the whole time. This whole cancer journey has been an experience I'm sure I will always draw on when fears pop up as God has come through for me SO many times! I'm still battling all kinds of fears but I'm learning to take steps forward in spite of the fear and not let my fears totally consume me. Don't get me wrong, I still have plenty of freak outs, tears, and what-are-you-doing-God moments. I'm beyond relieved to know that this part of treatment is over! I will see Dr Monroe in three months for follow-up and once I've completely finished treatment, I will start having CTs every 3-4 months.

I also got the results from my genetic testing and I do NOT have any mutations for Lynch Syndrome! Praise God!! I'm a "medical mystery" for a couple of reasons and for the first time yesterday I was ok with that news. Some things simply aren't answered in this lifetime.

Mark and I went to the Cancer Survivor dinner Tuesday night sponsored by The American Cancer Society, it was nice. We sat at a table with a German women who has battled breast cancer twice (and won) and her daughter who has battled uterine cancer (and won). They had a motivational speaker who Mark and I found for lack of a better word unmotivated. He was one of those you-create-your-own-destiny-with-the-power-of-positive-thinking types and not that I don't believe in positive thinking, I just don't believe that I control my destiny. I believe that God is in control and everything happens for a reason. I came away from the dinner with a greater appreciation for my relationship with Christ because I can't imagine doing cancer without God. It's interesting because I'm still working through different issues--there's still some anger and I'm not at the point of saying all that God has allowed is good, BUT I'm grateful He is in control of my situation and I'm really leaning on some of His promises like never before. There is some excitement for what's on the other side of this because I know cancer happened to me for a reason and I can't wait to see the good that will come out of it. I came away from the dinner wondering how can someone with cancer truly have hope if they don't have God? Honestly, I'm slowly learning that I'd rather have God than my uterus, or kids, or my life plans. Only God can take my losses and turn them into something better than I had ever imagined or hoped for....THAT'S hope!

I am two-thirds of the way through treatment with only 3 more cycles of chemo to go! :)