A difficult night

It probably doesn't take long after someone gets to know me to realize that I LOVE animals and I mean LOVE, LOVE, LOVE them. I've always been this way; I was that kid who brought every stray dog home and quite honestly, they still come home with me. :) Last night after it was dark I took Grace out for a walk, and as we passed by this certain house a chiwawa from across the street came darting out after us barking. He was trying to get to Grace, however, just as he was coming across the street a car was quickly approaching and it became apparent that he was going to get hit. I tried to yell at this small dog to stop him but it was too late, I heard the unmistakable thump as the car never came to stop. I know I'm a nurse but when it comes to animals all bets are off, I don't handle hurt animals well. I don't watch anything or read anything about animal abuse cases and I turn the channel on the tv when an animal kills its prey. I'm a super big wimp when it comes to animals and I freely admit it. So when this poor dog continued to lay in the street and didn't appear to be moving, I assumed it was dead and quite honestly, I was a bit panicked. I ran to the owner's house and knocked on their door and when they didn't answer, I went to the next house and knocked on her door. I was visibly upset and explained what just happened and thankfully she took me back to the owners house and when they saw her, they opened the door. I should have scooped that little dog up from the street but I wasn't thinking clearly and I was afraid to see it. A couple other cars drove over that dog as I'm sure they never saw him but by God's grace, he wasn't hit a second time. Anyway, the owner and her two young daughters rushed outside and one little girl started to run into the street to see if this was her dog. I went with her because I didn't want her to get hit, once we came upon her dog his tail moved which shocked me as I was sure he was dead. She scooped him up and we all ran back into their house, this poor dog was bleeding from his mouth and his nose. Everyone around me started to panic and that's when I started to become calm and think a bit more clearly. I was afraid this dog was bleeding internally and it bothered me that no adult was making a decision so I bluntly told everyone that this dog was suffering and they needed to make a decision right now as to what they wanted to do. That's when the owner Paula told me she wanted to take him somewhere but she was starting to have a panic attack and asked if I would drive them to get help. We wrapped the dog in a blanket, loaded her kids and Grace in her car (I told her I didn't have my license but at that point, it really didn't matter) and off we went. Everyone was becoming hysterical in the car and so I asked her if I could pray for all of them as we drove and that seemed to calm us all down. I stayed with them at the emergency room until her husband and son got there and then Mark came and picked Grace and I up. The news sounded a bit better than I anticipated, no internal bleeding but there was significant head trauma. I had exchanged phone numbers with Paula and asked that she please let me know of the final outcome of her dog. I had rescued one of their boston terriers probably a couple of years ago Tulula and fell in love with that dog. They obviously have some issues as their house is full of kids and many little dogs....lots of chaos! Once I got into the car with Mark the water works starting flowing, I was so heartbroken over this little dog AND the fact that Grace and I were the reason it got hit in the first place. I was also a bit bothered by the fact that I'll go to great lengths for animals but I'm not sure I would do the same for people. The truth is that sometimes I care far more about animals than people. Animals are unconditional, they don't disappoint, and I don't question their motives. Simply put, I trust animals in a way that takes me a bit when it comes to people. I'm sure God is working on this imbalance in me and it's going to take time. I called Paula today to see how their chiwawa is doing and so far, he is hanging in there which is a huge relief to me. The next 24-48 hrs are critical to make sure he doesn't have any swelling of the brain, she promised to keep me posted. I so hope this little dog lives!!