Happy New Year!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and a safe, and happy New Year. We spent Christmas at my sister's and had a lovely time. I had a blast playing with my nieces and seeing how much they have grown and changed since the last time I saw them. The fact that I got to play and enjoy this time cancer-free was not lost on me, I'm thankful for this "extra" time. Mark and I also really enjoyed this Christmas being just the two of us as we know it is very likely we will have kids next Christmas. It was a place of total contentment and excitement for whatever this next year brings too.
While I'm not a big new-year-resolution kind of person, I do take the time to reflect over the old year and think about what I'm hoping for in the new year. We have a LOT to be thankful for in 2011, lots of personal growth took place and yet there is still plenty of growth to work towards in 2012. The positive side of my low blood counts is that it snapped me back into focusing on what is truly important and letting the little things go. I was somewhat surprised at how I had slipped back into my old habits and way of thinking. It's so easy to take good health for granted, to place our focus on minor things, or to let our eyes wander instead of keeping Christ at the center. I really relate to Peter while he was walking on water and the moment his mind wandered, he started to sink. The hard part is realizing that you are sinking before you start to drown. I want to be very vigilante this year on where my focus is and keep track of my decisions and why I make them the way that I do. If you notice, old habits start creeping in one small step at a time. It only takes one negative thought, one small poor decision and before we know it, we are completely off track, our focus has shifted and we are going down a road we never intended. It's going to be a daily battle to take my thoughts captive but I'm determined to do it in 2012 because I don't want to waste time. I don't want life or fears to dictate my choices, I want to live purposefully which is a lot harder these days than it sounds. Anyway, I'm very excited for this year and for all the changes that it holds. I'm becoming a little more comfortable with change and a little less rigid and that's good because God never promised I would be comfortable.