I'm so much like an Israelite

I've been studying Exodus and I find that I can relate to the Israelites. Look at the miraculous things God has done for them and then minutes later see how quickly they take their eyes off of God. They complain and focus on the negatives of their circumstance, fear invades their hearts and minds. You know what else I'm learning, sometimes God leads us into a trial before leading us out of one! I don't like it but it's truth. I think to some God would appear harsh but when you think about God's promise to us to make us more like Him each day, it sort of makes sense to me. God's life on earth was by no means comfortable, why should I expect anything different? If I'm going to be more like Christ, there is a lot of molding, chiseling, and shaping that needs to take place, and the last time I checked, change occurs when I'm uncomfortable. I'm also learning that sometimes our circumstance will become worse before it gets better AND God is still in that circumstance no matter how it feels. It's so easy to say that when bad becomes worse God isn't in those details because why would a loving God allow such a thing. God allows bad to become worse for His greater purpose and to believe anything else will lead to despair. Sometimes I look back at one of my posts and think "I shouldn't have written that" or "that was a moment of weakness I wish I didn't share," but then I'm reminded that I want my blog to be an honest journey. I have days where my faith is strong and I'm just happy to still be alive but I also have days where simply put, I'd rather be in heaven then continue to struggle. These last few days God has been gently reminding me that I need to take my eyes off of my struggles and put them back on Him. He IS in the midst of my circumstances, working behind the scenes and in ways I may never fully understand or see. The hope for me comes from the fact that there is a purpose from my uncomfortabilty. I may never fully see that purpose but just knowing there is one helps me on the really bad days. Life isn't turning out the way I had hoped it would be but life isn't about me and my wishes, it's about what God is doing through me. I hope I learn to resist God less and simply let Him do His thing!
Exodus 14:14
"The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace."