WooHoo!

I met with Dr R to discuss all my menopause symptoms and I am so glad I sought her out! She told me about her mother's experience with breast cancer and how no physician would give her mom estrogen. We are on the same page when it comes to quality of life issues and so whenever I want estrogen, she will prescribe it! I am SO relieved to know that if I truly need it, I can get it. Now that I know I can have it, I'm still going to try and follow Dr P's rules and find alternative ways to feel better until that one year mark. In the meantime, Dr R is going to put me on a trial of low dose progesterone to see if that helps some of my symptoms. I honestly don't fully understand how this works in relation to menopause and will have to do some research, but I'm willing to give it a try. I'm just excited to try something that MAY help me feel more my age again! Maybe I can permanently get off the sleeping pills. :)

Heard from Dr P's office, my surgery is set for 12/6. I'm really nervous about this surgery in a way I didn't expect, I mean this will be a piece of cake in comparison to the last one. I think I'm afraid that he will find something or the pathology will come back with bad news. When it really counts, my medical tests have failed in one way or another. I'm given hope and then smacked with the reality that what was originally thought to be the case is no longer so. I think it's also a bit scary to have surgery because this truly marks the "end" of treatment for me. I've known this surgery was coming up for months so when chemo ended, I knew there was still one more part to be completed. I'm a bit unsettled about doing this surgery and I'm not entirely sure why. I guess it's time to meditate on my favorite "peace" verses and let scripture wash over my fears and whatever else is going on.
The good news is I received a call today that the Christian cancer support group I inquired about is starting an interest meeting this month, perfect timing! God IS in the details!