Had my port inserted yesterday and overall, it went very well. I have to say I'm very blessed to have the oncologist that I have! He makes me feel like we really are a team and he absolutely cares about what happens to me as a WHOLE person. Anyway, it was a long day at the hospital yesterday which I wasn't expecting but everything went well and I was thankful to have my mom keep me company.
Today is the big day, chemo cycle 1 of 6! I am SO sore at the port site and so thankful the needle was already left in place as I don't think I could handle someone accessing my port today. I'm excited to get the needle out tonight so I can shower and not have to worry about water getting inside the sterile field.
I'm nervous about having all this drugs pumped into my body, poisonous drugs at that! However, I'm worried that maybe I won't tolerate one of the toxic chemo drugs as I need them. I am praying for few side effects and simply hope that I am able to do the normal activities around the house and possibly work a shift or two in between each cycle. I'm NOT looking forward to losing my hair and I think that will turn this whole ordeal into reality. It still feel surreal as I look like myself. I don't look forward to looking like a sick person, I know I'm sick but as long as I don't look sick, I feel better about the whole situation. Odd but that's how it is. Well, here's to hoping the chemo goes smoothly and I keep my hair for as long as I can. Please please please let me keep my eyelashes Lord. :)
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