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Overall, I have been doing well, sometimes I'm fairly fatigued and that's still a frustrating adjustment. Exercise truly helps combat the fatigue which is good because I like exercise. :) I'm still having a hard time being bald, I miss my hair. Now that the shock has worn off I have a growing dislike for my new bald look, it's not cute or attractive! Some days I really don't feel much like wearing my wigs, they are scratchy at times and these new looks just aren't me. I'm trying to give it more time before I make a final decision on it all. I'd forgotten about scarves and finally went shopping for some today. While I didn't find anything I had in mind, I found some bandannas, so I'll give that a try around the house.
My eyelashes are continuing to thin out as well, makes the morning mascara a bit more tricky lately. I did buy some fake eyelashes just in case I can't handle it once they all fall out, it at least makes me feel like I'm in control over a small part of my look. I know I shouldn't complain about my hair, eyelashes etc. as this is temporary and I have far bigger things to worry about in the grand scheme of things. But I do believe losing all your hair, eyelashes etc. (especially for women) is part of the hardest part! Anyway, doing the makeover tomorrow and hoping I will come away from that feeling better about my new look.

I have been craving sweets lately and this is not like me, it's driving me nuts. I don't know if I'm stressed about radiation or if my hormones are still trying to settle themselves. It's not that I can't have sugar ever, it's knowing that cancers main fuel IS sugar that makes me want to stay away as much as possible. Anyway, I'm trying to figure out what is behind this battle as I CAN fix this one.

Blood counts will fall to their lowest point this week, hoping I don't hear from the MD as I would hate to be homebound!